All sort of things happen in life, even the ones that you do not expect. They are called "surprises", some are pleasant, some are unpleasant, and there some you just do not know where to put them.

This morning was like any other morning. Woke up at 4.50am (yes, thats when I wake up every morning), washed up, prepared for work and then head out of my home. Even as I got into the lift, I was still half-asleep; I had the habit of catching large amounts of sleep on my 1 and half hour journey to work.

So, like any other morning, I just hit the button with "1" on it and the lift door closed. I stoned for a second or 2 as the lift started moving downwards.

All of a sudden, there was a jerk and the lift came to a sudden stop. In my mind was a big big "?" and I actually thought the lift stopped for someone at the 7th floor. But no, the lift was somewhere between the 8th and 7th floor.

Really, being half asleep and getting stuck in a lift isn't the best things to mix. There was an announcement over the speaker that went "Please do not force the lift door open. Press the alarm and wait for rescue." I did not even realise my lift broke down, well, you can't blame me, the lights and ventilation were still on. So I just retardedly keep hitting the "1" button, then all the other buttons, and after about a minute of doing that, I realised my lift broke down.

So retardedly again, I pressed the alarm bell. In a variation of patterns and rhythm, and then realising that no one would hear the bell at 5.20am, I gave up. I just called for help myself. I didn't even know why I bothered to press the alarm when the helpline was right in front of me.

I dialed the number, and half-expected no one to pick up the phone. But of course, someone did.

"Hello?"

"Er, hi, I am stuck in the lift"

"Sorry?"

"Er, my lift broke down and I am stuck in the lift."

"Oh ok... which block is that?"

"686B"

"Ok, I'll send a rescue team over."

"May I know how long will it take?"

"25 minutes"

"Wha?"

"Could be earlier. 25 minutes or earlier."

"Oh ok, thanks"

15 minutes later, I heard sounds around the lift. Then someone knocked on the lift door outside and went "Hello?" I was feeling super sleepy and didn't react. So the fella went "Hello?" again. Then I realised that it was rescue and I responded "Ya?" And then the reply came "Wait wait."

10 minutes later, the lift door opens up and this indian guy popped his head in. I looked at him and said "Yo." Then he helped me to climb out of the lift and I said thanks and its off to work for me. I reached camp 30 minutes later than I usually did, but well, thank God I always reach camp 1 hour earlier than expected. :D

I received one of the weirdest SMS today. So weird that I have to blog it. Well, to protect the identity of those involved, names shall be replaced with fruits. (Note: this SMS came out of nowhere. There was no previous conversation with Kiwi at all.)

Kiwi: Maybe I got an idea

Me: What idea?

Kiwi: I have not think yet , if think already message you or even Tangerine .

Me: Ok... Good night!

Kiwi: Bye and good night rest .

I was dumbfounded for a minute.

Another new look to my blog.

However, it seems like I can't escape from the colour green. Oh well, I just like my blog to be in green. Kinda relaxing to read. I think.

Its another 44 more days to ORD. Time flies isn't it. I still remember it was during November that I decided to put down another 6 more months for the country (so patriotic, ain't I?) and its coming to the end of March now. Slighty more than a month and... my life will turn 180° back to... what it used to be.

University is next. The more I think about it, the more apprehensive I get. I am NOT prepared to study right now. Not at all. I have lost all my smart cells and replaced them with military ones. I wonder how do the rest of the guys in my country do it.

Theres only 1 person I know who is studying E.Lit right now, and that is Her Highness Shu Ting (mind you, she's the princess of a country that I can't tell you or I'll have to kill you). Looking at the way she writes and the amount of literature that is in her mind, and that she is still saying its not easy, I have decided on the following:

• I must watch more plays other than the ones Bright invites me to.
• I must read more books other than the ones which titles interest me.
• I must read more poems other than the ones that I randomly see online.
• I must go revise all my literary devices.
• I must know more literary devices other than hyperbole, alliteration, simile, personification, irony, sarcasm, oxymoron, parody etc.
• I must put more literature into my brain.

I wonder when will I ever get on to doing these things.

I have built a city here

Half with pride and half with fear

I just wanted a safer place to hide

I don’t want to be safe tonight

I need You like a hurricane

Thunder crashing wind and rain

To tear my walls down

I’m only Yours now

I need You like a burning flame

A wild fire untamed

To burn these walls down

I’m only Yours now

I’m only Yours now

I am Yours and You are mine

You know far better than I

And if destruction's what I need

Then I’ll receive it LORD from Thee

Yes I’ll receive it LORD from Thee

And its Your eye in the storm

Watching over me

And its Your eye in the storm

Wanting only good for me

And if You are the war

Let me be the casualty

Till I’m Yours alone

I am only Yours

I am Yours alone LORD

再给我两分钟

让我把记忆结成冰

别融化了眼泪

你妆都花了要我怎么记得

记得你叫我忘了吧

记得你叫我忘了吧

你说你会哭

不是因为在乎

I loved this video. Enjoy. :D

Just in case anyone wants to know more about me... I don't know, I feel that its kinda creepily accurate. Maybe I don't know myself well enough. Anyway if you people want to check out the quiz, just pop over to http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Sometimes I wish life was like a game. You know what you are supposed to do, you know where you are supposed to go, you know who you are supposed to meet.

That the special someone you are supposed to meet is going to meet you in the most interesting of scenarios; like when you fall from the sky landing in a bed of flowers; or when you go on a secret mission in a train with a resistance group; or when you plan to kidnap the princess and then fall in love with her; or when you arrive in a foreign world and you just know the summoner standing on water is the one.

That it doesn't matter what happens between you two. It doesn't matter if she's the last of her kind in the world and you rescue her from an evil electric company despite the odds and then go on an epic adventure; it doesn't matter if everyone believes she's a soceress, you are just going to rescue her; it doesn't matter if she's the queen and you are just a bandit; and it doesn't matter she's getting forced into marriage, you are going to disrupt that marriage.

And it doesn't even matter how it ends. She might die, killed by your arch enemy; you might finally get to hold her in your arms under the moonlight at a party; she might come running to you after you return from saving the world; or the two of you might not even be allowed to be with each other at the end.

Whatever it is, no matter how it ends, it doesn't matter, as long as the two of you have loved each other while you were together. That even if you can't be with each other physically, you have each other in your heart, and the both of you converse in your dreams.

Sometimes I wish life was like a game. A fantasy. Or fantasies. Final fantasies.

Contrary to popular belief, there are actually many things to learn in the army that can be applied practically to our lives. And one of the things that I learnt, is the term: Regroup.

During my training as a section commander, I learnt that when we get into a very nasty situation, we retreat and regroup. That is actually very common knowledge. The reason as to why we do that is simple; because we got compromised and thus have to reorganize, restrategise, and then return again to restart the fight. It is not surrendering. It is simply regrouping.

In a general term, I call this "Restart". Funny as it may seem, restarts actually play a very big role in our lives. Our computers have a function to restart when our system go bonkers, our PSP, Playstations, XBOX, they all have a restart function. Even if a product has no restart button, like our handphones, we always turn them on and off whenever something seemed wrong with the device.

Why do we do that? Because we believe that by restarting the device, it will simply sort itself out. And it does. Restarts seem to work most of the time. When our computer crash, the 1st thing we do is to restart it; then pray that it works, which usually happens.

Though I do restarts often, I never liked it. It actually takes courage and sacrifice to hit that "Reset" or "Restart" button. When I am playing a game and it hangs, I always hesitate a long time before I hit the "Reset" button. Thats because I know if I restart, I will lose all that I have done before the game hanged. However, the thing is that if I don't restart, I simply am unable to move on. A dilemma indeed.

I have been in the down for quite some time now. Been hitting this invisible wall these days, unable to get a move on. Taking a step back and looking at the road behind me, I realised that I have actually struggled quite a bit with myself. Torn bits of clothes were lying at some places where I tore them from myself, there were books at some places where I ran out of ideas.

Looking down this particular road, I realised that at some point, I decided to leave God out of the plan. I decided that I could do this on my own, that I had enough in me to handle whatever that may come my way. I was wrong. I only made a big mess out of myself.

Realising that I was going nowhere, I decided to walk back down the road, pick up all the bits and pieces I dropped; retreat back to the start point again.

Its time to restart and to regroup. And this time, God's going to lead the way.

Just finished watching "The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button". And this is one of my favourite scenes. :D

"But life being what it is, a series of intersected lives and incidents, out of anyone's control..."