Day Of The 'O'

The day of the 'O', thats what I call the day I get my 'O' Level results, and that day just happens to be coming soon. Haha, just a few more days before I know how I did in this major exam which I attempted months ago. What a big part of my life it is huh. Recently people have been asking me, "Hey Meng Hui, you are getting your 'O' Level reseults soon right? How do you feel? Nervous?" My straight reply is usually "Ya, kinda nervous." Actually I am. In the past few months when I just finished the papers, I don't feel nervous or edgy at all. I just feel all the joy and freedom. Holidays that last for more than 3 months is something I had not experienced in my last 10 years of schooling, and I am excluding the kindergarten days (I did not attend nursery as my mother sent me to kindergarten straight when I was just 4, making me spend 3 years in kindergarten) So I was really happy and didn't think about the results. But now, I can feel the nervousness set in. When I am alone thinking, I would think "What if the results turn out so bad that I simply can't get into polytechnic or junior college at all?" What if this and what if that. Many what ifs came bombarding my little mind. But, actually, whats there to be nervous about? Even if I am nervous, what can I do about this result of mine, which have already been printed and is now on its way from Cambridge to Singapore, or is already in Singapore. Well, being nervous sure won't change a single thing on that paper. But I don't just quit being nervous and stop there. I pray to my God. You know, praying is really powerful. I tell my God that please, let my result be this good. I may not be able to do a thing to change anything on that paper, but God can. I don't know how He is going to do it, but I just have to put my trust in Him. My God can do everything. And if my results ain't so good, it does not mean that God didn't hear me, it just means that God has something else planned for me, and I am gonna follow it.

Simply Simple Love

Today I plug into my mp3 and this song came from the earphones, "Jian Dan Ai ("Simple Love" from my Chinese-English translation). Then this thought popped in my mind, "Can love ever be simple at all?" As the lyrics go "Hold your hands and never let go...", can that ever be possible? "Love that is innocent with no sorrows", will it ever be? I have no idea. According to my experience, it has never happened. But is it ever going to be possible, at all? Yes and no, according what you believe. Well, the love basically depends on both parties. If both parties say yes to simple love, then yes, simple love is possible. However, take note that BOTH parties have to say yes, if one says no, then forget it. Its a couple effort, one person can't change things. Well, you may say, "It is so simple to have simple love." Er, not so easy. We are always very complicated, we think things in a very complicated way. I personally have no idea why, maybe its because of the way we were all brought up. In this very complicated environment that made our minds complicated. You know, many a times, love can start off simply, very innocently. But for some reason, it will turn complicated. Some people call it taking an extra step. Well, I don't know what you call it, but this extra step is surely a dangerous one. When things get too complicated, they simply say that they are pressurized by the relationship. Then this pressure will break the relationship (pressure always break things). Well, it sure looks simple, so simple to lose the love. Why do people take this extra step and lose their innocent and simple love, you may ask? Well, because people around them are all caught in complicated love, people in the movies, people they know etc. This problem may seem like a big and complicated problem, but it actually very simple to solve. The solution is simply that both parties simply believe and hold on to this simple love.

Red Packets, Roses, Horror, Woman And More Horror

Yesterday which was Valentine's Day, was such an eventful day that I felt that I had to talk about it. It has got nothing to do with a valentine as I never had one. Well, my buddies and I were supposed to meet at 11 and go to Rebecca, my other buddy's house. However, Rebecca decided that she didn't want us to go her house so early, therefore the whole thing was pushed to 3pm, and in the process, a trip to the zoo which was planned earlier was cancelled. So the gang of Kent, Ben, Huan Jian and Me were scheduled to be meet at 3 at the platform of the MRT station, then take the MRT to Becca's house. So we met up and were about to go and take the train when Becca said she was in CCK and we were to go down and out of the station to meet her, 60 cents wasted. Well, doesn't matter. So we met and ate, then went to her house. Miss Rebecca actually got cut by a glass on a road while we were on our way, how unfortunate. But it doesn't matter, as I got my "everything that is needed packed in one" bag with me, so we did a little first aid on her toe and took out the glass piece. And then we just stayed at her house and did some vandalism on the wall and got some red packets. After that, Miss Becca gave us roses! My goodness. I was shocked for a split second but recovered after that. We didn't prepare anything for her, so immediately, a thought popped up in all of our minds, no words were spoken, we had meeting using our minds only. So we went out and were supposed to have dinner at Causeway Point, but it turned out to be a movie trip instead. I was captured by an indian lady who wanted me to buy bear for $20, but Becca rescued me. Then they went to buy tickets while I excused myself to the toilet, to buy some roses. Then we gave her the flowers and Becca bought us all chips. Well, so I ate chips and watched this supposed-to-be-horror film. The film turned out quite lame. Talking about a stupid mirror which would kill people or something. I would have watched other films if I had a choice. And I had to listen to some weird language for about 2 hours. Kent acted like he was scared but I knew he was not. The film could scare nobody, it was total lameness and is total piece of crap. My "everything needed packed in one" bag came into use again as there was a jacket for Miss Rebecca, who had a little problem with low temperatures. Then we went out and chatted at the MRT station. It was normal chat untill I realised weird expressions on Kent's and Ben's faces. Then everyone in the group had weird expressions and the whole group fell silent. I realised something was amiss and they were all staring at me. So I just turned back and there was this lady standing behind me who looked like she walked out of the film I just watched, and she was staring blankly into the air. So I thought she needed some help and said "I'm sorry?" She just held her handphone and ignored me. After a few seconds, she turned and walked off. I was wondering if she even saw us or heard me or not. Well, after that, we took the last train home and that was it. Oh ya, Huan Jian told me he saw the same woman again today at Bukit Timah, what a coincidence... or is it?

Festives All In One

Today is Valentine's Day, and also the 6th day of the Lunar New Year. So how have you spent your new year? I have visited many of my relatives and I believe you have too. And ya, thats all I have done this new year. Yet is there a deeper meaning to this? Actually there is. This time round, I actually realised that I did not know my relatives very well. When my family went around and visited some people and some people visited us, I realised that I did not even know some of their names or how they have been 'linked' to me. Worse still, I did not even know that I had this relative! Its also interesting to realise that many of this people whom I met and have given us such hospitality when we visited them, are people whom I actually meet only once a year! Interesting. Its not like I know them very well you know. Well, red packets isn't everything about the Lunar New Year, sometimes the important things are to meet your relatives and find out who your relatives actually are! Haha. And then its Valentine's Day. How have you spent your Valentine's Day then? Did you have a valentine? If not, do not worry, I don't have one too. Well, don't start to panic and look around for a partner, thats because you don't need a valentine to spend your Valentine's Day. Spend it with your friends, it doesn't matter. And to the rest who actually have a valentine, don't just treat your partner nice today, treat him or her as nice everyday. Valentine's Day isn't all there is in a relationship. Got it? Haha. So I'll just wish everybody a very happy and successful Lunar New Year and Valentine's Day.

Making Mistakes

Everybody makes mistakes. I do. And I suppose you and your friends and your parents and everybody else do as well. Its part of life. Nobody knows how to do everything right when they are born. Everyone is bound to make a mistake. Nobody is perfect. However, making mistake isn't too much of a problem as long as we learn from it. Some dude named John Powell once said "The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing." So true, its extremely important to learn from your mistake so that you won't commit it again. Seems alright? Well, there is problem. We don't expect ourselves to make mistakes sometimes. Even when we know clearly that we are not perfect, we believe that we are pretty close to perfect. Thats a problem. So when the time comes when we really make a mistake, we feel so bad and all. Thats when pride comes in. We get too proud to admit our mistake, and how are we going to learn from our mistakes which we don't even admit? We simply can't. What happens when we don't admit our mistakes is that we find excuses to cover so that it looks like it ain't our fault. In the end, we don't learn anything from our mistake, we just learn how to get better at finding excuses. Therefore, we should humble ourselves, and admit the mistake and learn from it. Face the consequences if necessary. After that, we must forgive ourselves, just like God has forgiven us, then move on. It ain't easy, but I'm sure it ain't a problem for all of us.

My Belief

If you guys do not already know, I am a christian. Today, I am going to talk a little about my beliefs. First off, I must make it clear that I am not against any religion nor anyone in other religion, I am just talking about my beliefs. So if you guys feel uncomfortable with this religion topic, I suggest you don't read on, I don't want to have conflicting comments on religions.(Any comments I don't seem fit will not be entertained) You know, as a christian, I don't get to see my God. But thats not because my God don't exist, thats because He is too great to be seen. Well, so how? Thats when faith come into play. Living by faith by not by sight. You don't have to see something to believe in something. Its like you can't see your brain but you believe that you have a brain right? Well, there are wooden crosses with Jesus on it, but thats not I worship. I don't worship things made of wood or stone, I worship a true and living God. I don't worship fat figurines made of stone and covered in gold or wooden statues with beard on them. No no, the God I worship is one that is living, can talk, can perform miracles, can basically do everything. I believe that to ask God to do something, I will need to pray. I don't believe that polluting the air by burning paper in a tin or littering the grounds by throwing paper all over the place or creating alot of smoke by burning a stick will get me any blessings. No no again. I believe that the truth is in the Bible. The Bible is the Word of God, it is consistent and it never lies, meaning that everything written in it will happen. I don't believe in some fengshui book that is written by some person who looks at water and wind or mountains and determines the fate of somebody. These fengshui books are the words of man, changes every now and then, and are not accurate, thats why you have so many fengshui people giving different opinions. Well, that should be enough huh. Once again I must say that I am not discriminating against any religion nor am I insulting anyone in any religion. This is my belief, and if you want to join in my belief, you can always come and find me.